Releasing My Agenda
Pride has always been an issue for me. I, as a human being, cannot help but think of myself. How many of my statements begin with “I”? I want…I need…I would like… My self centeredness is so ingrained in my flesh that I hardly notice it. I’m a list maker. I’m type A, strong willed and independent. I like to do things my own way! How can the Lord work through someone who doesn’t like to be told what to do? Doesn’t want to be “micro- managed” or directed? Submission. Over the years I have come to respect and even enjoy surrender and submission. Not so much when I was younger. The word “submit” made me grimace. Yuck. And yet, the scripture is clear that God expects us to submit to Him.
Christ taught us to pray – Lord, you are holy. Your kingdom come. Your will be done. Over the last year my morning prayer has been “not my will, but yours…not my agenda, but yours, Lord.” This prayer has revolutionized my life. I cannot tell you the number of times I was zipping along in my day, following my plan, when I was suddenly interrupted! Normally I would be frustrated by these interruptions to my plan. Instead I have a catch in my spirit – is this from you Lord? Is this your agenda?
I pray again – OK Lord – not my agenda but yours! I have had conversations with strangers, meaningful time with my kids or a friend, and other blessings from these “interruptions.” I am learning to let go of my own agenda and be open and available to the Lord. It is not easy. My plan gets changed regularly. I need to have margin in my “list” to allow the Lord to work. This prayer has been a daily act of surrender. I encourage you to give it a try. Surrender your day, your plan, your list. You will be surprised what the Lord brings your way!
Post by Michelle Halley, gracespring member